Never Give Up, Never Surrender

well here we are again, sitting here on my bed writing about whats on my mind. So here we go lets do this thing.

First off i wanted to say that this past week for me has been a real battle with life. I had 3 tests and a research paper to write all within 3 days of each other, so needless to say that time was not enjoyable. I only managed to sleep like 15 hrs over the week and it was just horrible all the way around. But now here i am sitting and looking back on last week and i realize there was some good to come out of it. And what would that be you may be asking...........well its simple perseverance. Without such of a drive i would have given up on my studies and said forget it and move on to more important things like sleeping and having fun. But i didnt i buried my nose in the books and just studied and studied and studied till i coulnt even think. At one point i was up for 42 hours straight, which isnt enjoyable just take my word for it. Ya see fires refine who you really are and what your made of and last week i was cought in a rather large fire, testing every aspect of me. And through those flames i developed an extream drive, perseverance, motivation, whatever you want to call it. That fire light a fire in me to just never give up, to never surrender.........(ha ha thats a line from the movie 300).......anyways that fits perfectly though we today are in a constant battle, a war determining our fate. And ya see nothing good was ever easy........NEVER.......the best things in life are those you have to work at and work at and strive for, just like our walk with Christ. I am learning this both in my walk with Christ and with just my everyday life. Working and seeking and trying for something makes you want it more, it makes you value whatever it is your seeking more. This object of great importance now becomes very special, you want it and your going to do whatever you can to get it. And finally once that day comes when you recieve that which you have yerned for you will truely appriciate it for all it was intended. Thus perseverance was born.

So basically what i am saying guys is that nothing comes easy, you got to be willing to do some work and put in some time to see the results, but when you do its always worth it. So remember hang in there and be tough, keep fighting the fight.

The little hethans

Hey guys thought it was time to get back on here and let ya know what i'm feeling. First off just want to say life is good, God is good. Even though I find myself in trials and hardships and lack of faith i know God is always there, he will never leave us. Secondly just want to hit on an area of my life that God seems to be pulling me into. This area is the youth, ya know from infant to senior in high school. Like take tonight for example at the McVay's I was playing rock paper scissors and 1-2-3 thumb war and this indian slap game and this quarter game. I was playing these games with several little ones, most of whom I dont usually hang around with aton just due to the differences in our lives. But sitting there tonight playing those games and messing with those little ones was amazing. I find so much joy in being there for the little ones. Seeing this innocence of a child just causes me to be strengthened in my walk. For it says you must have the faith of a child, thats just amazing. I am beginning to really think children are going to be a big influence on my life. I really think that i am being called to do something with the little ones, however hethan like they are.

Next I would just like to talk about how life is going. God seems to be blessing my socks of here lately and I am just amazed, he is given me joy in my classes so that i enjoy being there a little more. He has exposed me to some new people who i have began to associate with. He has given me freedom from alot of worries, we are free in Him. Now granted im not perfect but here lately i just feel alot of well freedom, i just dont seem to get bothered by stuff anymore. I know i will be protected and provided for, he knows whats best for me.

Well thats about all i can think of and its also 3:31 am and im kinda about ready to fall asleep so sorry if there is a bunch of misspellings or if i just seem to rant. Hope ya all enjoyed. Have a blessed day.

Spring Break

Hey guys I know its been forever since my last post and that was because I basically gave up on this whole blog idea, I was just being really lazy and did not feel like typing what was on my mind. Well, now I have decided to pick this back up. I just need to express things so guess you all can be in for a treat now lol :-)

Anyways now lets get the the topic, which as you all can read is SPRING BREAK. Well, who here seriously does not like spring break? Anyone??? Huh??? Yea thats right all of us love spring break, and I mean who wouldnt. You get a week off of class to just sit back and not worry about a thing, no homework or papers or books to read. For one solid week you can just kick back and have a blast having fun with family and friends.

Well Spring Break for me took on a little deeper meaning. I was looking at spring break as an escape, I was tired of school and just needed a break from it all. This semester for me seems to be rather complex. On one hand I have school and all that it encompasses and on the other hand I have my spiritual walk and the great journey before me. I often find myself getting completely overwhelmed with school that it suffocates my walk with Christ. I just get weighed down with homework and school stuff that I find myself not reading the Word, or if I do read the Word my brain and head feel like they are about to explode so I dont really read and understand I am mearly looking at the words on the pages. I feel this is because my head is so overwhelmed with everything that my brain cant shove anymore into it or it will explode. I know this is just a work of the enemy trying to slip me up and hinder my walk with Christ, but at the same time I often find myself not desearning this and fighting back against the enemy. So during the week I find myself struggling to "plug in" as everyone says. This greatly hinders my walk, but at the same time it has strengthened it. The battle for my mind is an ongoing day to day battle, I will honestly admit that some days I lose the battle while other days I win the battle. But there is one thing I know for sure and that is eventhough I may lose some of the battles I know I will eventually win the war, " For he who is in me is greater than he who is in the world".

This is if for now i ran out of time be back later